tennessee thomas was right, my default is hot considering how ugly i am
obviously i hate updating, otherwise i'd do it every other day/week like all of you people but i lead a very boring life. i mean hello, i am john nolan, what do you expect from me? straylight run is not exactly high powered or well known, who else would agree to have their music on the wb AND the golf channel? that's what i thought.

seeing as how i am basically a nobody lately, i did nothing for the fourth of july other than glue myself to the couch and watch the flashes from the fireworks through the window during commercials. there were plenty of awesome tv specials on the 4th and i am so very thankful i did not miss a single one. hopefully you all caught onto the heavy layer of sarcasm there. i was really bummed out that i didn't get to spend the big day with my sister but i know how huge adam's intolerance for me is so i decided that staying away would be better for everyone but me. i am just that awesome, i sacrifice my own feelings for those of my sister and the person she is married to. anyhow, maybe next year my fourth will be much better, but for now what can i do? absolutely nothing. it doesn't even bother me anyway, i'm over it and i have been for some time now. not that i even know what "it" is. anyway.

i spent the last two and a half hours talking to michelle on the phone because we both know that it is quite dangerous to take the train to see each other at this hour. seeing as how we were both plastered in essence, the conversation was very insightful and deep. it seems i can only be deep and insightful when drunk and/or writing songs. not that my songs are thought provoking, what is there to think about pounding someone on prom night? not a damn thing. none of this even makes any goddamn sense, why are you reading it?? the only important thing is that i got to talk to my sister without a stupid fight over my amazing ability to take everything personally or her special way of saying offensive things without meaning to be offensive. i am very glad she and i are close. i really do not know what things would be like if we didn't talk. i know i always talk about her in my updates but i can't help it. anyway, i've been listening to a lot of nightmare of you lately, why isn't brandon reilly around? which reminds me, hello sherri and stacy dupree and hello kevin devine. kevin, i checked your journal frantically for mention of the show we had together a while ago but i found nothing about it. i see how it is. just kidding, goodnight/good morning.